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So I have just now entered the hell weeks of the end of school. My mind cannot stop from thinking what is due and when. Relaxing has helped thanks to Jack and her angel hair pasta w/ chicken and capers. It is amazing how I am just now organizing my room when I am sort of close to moving out. How that happens I don’t know but thinking I will being doing it again frightens me. It is going to be a busy few weeks. I Finally made another notch on my belt… getting to skinny for my own good.

Your true love have given you one chance to reconcile your relationship, and she’s across town, and it’s 100 degrees, and your air conditioning is out, and there’s traffic, and you’re running out of time, and you’re stopped at a traffic light with a car in front of you, and the light turns green and you might have just enough time to make it to where she is, but the car in front of you isn’t moving because the driver is asleep or not paying attention, and the light is still green but you can’t go anywhere, and you feel your last chance at happiness slipping away, and the light turns yellow, then red, and then after a long time it turns green again, but the car in front of you still won’t move, and the light turns yellow and then red again…wouldn’t you want to get out of your car and go up there and just kill the guy?

A - Age: 21
B - Bed size: Full
C - Chore you hate: Dishes
D - Dogs’ names: Casey/Kitty
E - Essential start your day item: Music
F - Favorite color: blue
G - Gold or Silver: silver
H - Height: 6′11″
I - Instruments you play(ed): violin
J - Job: trouble shooting peoples computer needs
K - Kids: NA
L - Living arrangements: Apartment
M - Mom’s name: Deborah
N - Nicknames: Derr, Dezzer, J
O - Overnight hospital stay other than birth: Alcohol poisoning even if it was the middle of the night
P - Pet peeve: WoW
Q - Quote from a movie: “People think it’s all about misery and desperation and death and all that shit which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it. Otherwise we wouldn’t do it. After all, we’re not fucking stupid. At least, we’re not that fucking stupid.” (Trainspotting)
R - Right or left handed: right
S - Siblings: Older Sister
T - Time you wake up: 8 ish
U - Underwear: boxers
V - Vegetables you dislike: broccoli only
W - Ways you run late: sleeping in
X - X-rays you’ve had: back
Y - Yummy food you make: lo mein
Z - Zoo favorite: Gorillas

I do believe; In the event of the dark knight’s death the first robin Dick Grayson is defiantly the rightful heir to batman.

So another break and another long time till I update. So it was Easter break and I went back to Kansas City because I promised everyone I would be back. Showed my mom Jimmy Johns to which I think I might be branching out my tastes there. I drank nothing BUT Boulevard Wheat…. Well a smokestack series in there but that still counts. I basically spent a night with each of my best friends.

Thursday was spent with Colby/Adam drinking a lot on a thursday… Typical. I setup their router drunk. You have no idea how hard it is to setup a friend’s router without being mean and calling the router “boner Jams” or “Dick’s live here” I at least decided on “FBGM” If you know me you know what that means. Samething also goes for the password to I make something mean like “shortcocks” no I gave it a password they would remember.

Then drunk facebook.

Friday was spent with Jason at Jose Peppers over many pitchers of Boulevard. Realizing the man is having a ball at work with him being a ladies man and many nice women working there. It was alittle scary drive home but home safe due to team work. Then mike came over we watched some East Bound & Down and had some more beer.

Saturday was spent at my Cousins and I had no one to talk to yet again. It is getting seriously awkward but at least now I can drink and at least I had that going.

Then I got to see amanda who I haven’t seen since start of last summer. Things sure have changed but for the better. Also somethings for worse. I had to get the inside scoop about our old high school friends. Good to know my ex is doing bad although I feel bad for that baby. I told her how everyone on my side of the group was doing. I told her how I have rejuvenated for Kansas City and she replies that is how she felt but it passes. It makes sense but I hope that does not happen.

It was a good weekend all in all.

Brendan Frye: Whatever, befalls you I’ll deal with. Just tell me about the trouble with the brick, the pin.

Life has been pretty happy lately. School is doing well even though I am on edge about classes even though it’s better to be scared shitless about classes then to be lazy and go with the flow. I am registering for next falls classes. I am taking Financial accounting, Operations management, Advanced System analysis and Design, Advanced Database Management. I even woke up this morning and had a conversation about studying abroad. I’m not but it does run through my mind.

Jeremiah

that really test your initiative to learn the language
10:32amJonathan

yea is it easier being around it a lot??

like surrounded by it
10:32amJeremiah

yeap

best way to learn
10:33amJonathan

how one last thing how is your camera and how much did you pay for it

slr or dslr??
10:34amJeremiah

dslr

it is a nikon d60

i paid 550 plus 150 for my 55-200mm lens
10:35amJonathan

yea you have to get a good lens
10:35amJeremiah

it was the best deal you can find
10:35amJonathan

where did you get it from??

yea i’d bet that is a good deal
10:35amJeremiah

lawrence photo and video they were the cheapest anywhere

i only have a few pictures on my facebook from it
10:35amJonathan

aren’t they the ones on campbell
10:35amJeremiah

but i have a few on my flikr
10:36amJonathan

yea i saw
10:36amJeremiah

yeap
10:36amJonathan

they were pretty fantastic
10:36amJeremiah

i will be filling it with pictures from china

if you want to go to china

for fall 2009

tell me and i’ll talk to the people in charge

my wife and i will be there

for the fall 2009 semester

Dalian the city where the branch campus is is one of the cleanest and most beautiful cities in china
10:37amJonathan

that would be good but I still have more thinking even though I know if I don’t go soon i’ll never go lol
10:37amJeremiah

yeap
10:37amJonathan

not bad
10:37amJeremiah

i just went and didn’t think and it was one of the best decisions of my life
10:38amJonathan

lol wouldn’t doubt that
10:38amJeremiah

they have a huge IT sector in Dalian also

they are growing it to be the silicon vally of china
10:38amJonathan

yea they have got to be still growing pretty big
10:39amJeremiah

all the large it companies are there

i made a website about it

it is under my profile on facebook of website
10:40amJonathan

very cool
10:40amJeremiah

not a complete list and information is 2007 data

you are correct if you don’t do it now you won’t ever do it

missouri state has a lot of great opportunities that students don’t take advantage of

many are too concerned about getting out and working
10:42amJonathan

yea well the other things they say is studying abroad equates the same tuition and living expense but then they add in alittle more because of food and other things
10:42amJeremiah

china is much cheaper
10:42amJonathan

so does it cost more to study abroad

technically speaking

well china is
10:43amJeremiah

if you add the airfare yes

if you go to europe australia then yes definately more

things are becoming more expensive there
10:44amJonathan

yea thats what i thought also i heard it’s more expensive flight from china to us then us to china
10:44amJeremiah

its weird

if you buy a round trip ticket should be no more than 1400

you can find some for 900

950

1100

there are scholarships out there

i got one for 3500
10:45amJonathan

yea i heard about thosew
10:45amJeremiah

that paid for my trip to china
10:46amJonathan

and it’s good too cuz I am crack addicted to lo mein
10:46amJeremiah

studying abroad is one of the best things for a resume also

haha

if you like chinese food here you’ll love real cinese food
10:46amJonathan

lol\
10:47amJeremiah

globalization is happening and will increase more and more might as well accept it

actually no reason to fight it

but many people do

but they will lose the fight
10:47amJonathan

yea it is kind of dumb to be ignorant of it
10:48amJeremiah

studying abroad will open your mind to new realizations that are unexplainable and open your network

think about it and let me know
10:49amJonathan

okay i will
10:49amJeremiah

if you need more information you can contact tami sutton in carrington

it is probably getting close to the deadline to apply but they will probably make exceptions

i know there are 2 guys going for spring 2009
10:52amJonathan

can do
10:52amJeremiah

you think you are going to go to grad school
10:53amJeremiah

have a good rest of the weekend and i’ll catch you later i got to get studying for a test on tuesday

So I really didn’t think I would like Hollywood Undead but it is really growing on me. I think it’s my mix of liking Rap and Scene it works not going to deny that. Makes me really want to go out to California. My sister wants my mom and I to go out there during the summer. I am always up for a vacation.

So I was cleaning out my bookmarks and came across the imdb page for the go-getter maybe thinking about having a dl.

The city looks so pretty do you wanna burn it with me?

So I have been sorta kinda been wanting to see the movie Wendy and Lucy… good ol indie movie trailer looks nice.

So I wait till I am bored enough to watch it and when there is a good torrent out for it. So I suddenly remembered and downloaded. Ehh it was worth the watch but one of those movies you wish had a real ending or more plot. I am glad I saw it.

“Is there no more great frontier?”

So every Senses Fail concert makes me miss the scene and makes me feel at home. Even though I am not a scene kid much but I do think deep down It is there. It is interesting going to a show without a girlfriend tagging along because I saw around me the guys ruthlessly protecting their girls from the mosh pits. So it reminds me of myself back then because I did the same thing.

Corner Cafe is delicious and a creepy place all at the same time.

So I am finally taking classes that I should actually enjoy but I am finding a lack of enjoyment in them. I agree that it is a class and that is annoying. Thing is I try somewhat hard in the class versus other who have to try really hard to even grasp it. There are things that go over my head even. At first I thought what am I doing in this class but after scoring high on the test I think this might be in my blood. As much as I am worried about not knowing anything when I go into the workforce I am betting on them training me on everything I need to know. If they don’t then it’s kind of a bad company.

So today/yesterday is the ides of march Cesar got shanked never forget about that.

Colby and Stobaugh came down to visit it’s always fun to catch up. I just hate over thinking when planning something I always tend to run behind on things. So I rush to get everything done and I forget things. Its always worse while drinking.

So I am currently reading Jack Keroac On The Road. If you know me if anything is referenced from movies, television, music, or even books I have to read it. So far so good haven’t read much it’s always bad when the weekend rolls around because I can’t read at night because I am usually drunk. Although lately I haven’t been drinking so much for good reason too. Sunday afternoons of reading a book are great however.

This Friday is going to be a senses fail concert and break to which I am excited and saddened all at the same time.

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So I have been thinking about Dylan lately and have had this thought for awhile. He songs are very much about a guy who fell out of love with a girl to which it appeals to young men like myself. He just sets the mood and makes you think “geez this guy must have really loved some girl or lots of girls”. Although from his songs you can see non of them really lasted. The only girls really mentioned in his wikipedia is Sara Lownds.

As Oliver Trager writes, this song of fading love is “a restless, forlorn ballad for the ages and sages - a classic Dylan tale of two lovers, a crossroads, and the open sea…” In the second to last verse, Dylan realizes that despite his pleading, his lover will not be returning to him: “Well, if you, my love, must think that-a-way/I’m sure your mind is roamin’/I’m sure your heart is not with me/But with the country to where you’re goin’.” This song encapsulates that gut-wrenching moment when you come to understand that the person you love has drifted away, leaving you longing and heartbroken.

Okay here is where this comes into play. So back when I was a young single kid Bob Dylan really grabs you and you can listen to him for hours because it’s great breakup music. Now I told myself this isn’t going to be too personal and name names but… I really can’t listen to Bob (except his upbeat songs) because I am truely happy and in love and I am completely fine with that. Because this is more than likely the best thing to ever happen to me.